5 Dec 1996
Deliverance
Hello Ben
Dr. Baldwin's book, "Spirit Releasement Therapy" arrived today.
Looking forward to reading it.
Let's talk about exorcism (deliverance). In a Roman Catholic exorcism there
are usually several stages: A feeling of presence, the demon's attempt at
continued pretense, a breakpoint when the demon is finally exposed, a period
of profound confusion, the clash between the exorcist and the demon, and
if all goes well, expulsion. It can be quite lengthy. There are proscribed
instructions, rituals and prayers. One of the strongest injunctions is against
engaging the demon in conversation. It is an altogether risky venture and
can be dangerous.
Why does your method seem to work so much more safely and quickly? From
what you have written, although it certainly isn't risk free, you seem to
be considerably safer communicating with these demons than a traditional
exorcist. Why?
The exorcist works under the authority of the church, which I am told is
for protection. My friend Fran also recommended belonging to a church so
that I am "covered" by the prayers of the priest/minister. Do
you think this is necessary, and if so, why?
When you do spirit releasement, you ask for warrior angels. I'm assuming
their weapon is light?
Considering how difficult it is to hear God's "still small voice,"
to differentiate between voices, to discern the honest ones from the deceivers,
have you ever asked your as-angels why they (and others in God's Kingdom)
don't come up with a better means of communication?
God isn't omnipotent??? Next you'll tell me God isn't omniscient, omnificent,
or omnipresent! Actually you briefly mentioned this in another letter. It
calls into question a lot of assumptions: That even the hairs on my head
aren't numbered. That God quite possibly doesn't know where all His creatures
are, (else the angels wouldn't have trouble finding them.) Seems to make
for a fairly helpless God. Except that my experience has been that God does
some miraculous things. I still have a hard time understanding why God *can't*
help at times.
Things are a mess on this earth! Why aren't the "good guys" more
aggressive in helping out over here? Why not more direct involvement? What's
Jesus doing? He's more powerful than the angels, and he has first hand experience
of what it's like. (Sigh...) I suppose it is pointless to ask these questions.
It's the same question I was asking years ago. I don't believe God *can't*
help.
>I am still concerned about whatever it was that seemed to work to
prevent your participation in the healing session. But again, I'll wait
and see.
I frequently get interference when I attempt to pray, enough to cause quite
a bit of frustration. When I am alone and have a couple of hours, I manage
to get past the block about 30% of the time. The rest of the time I resign
myself to "transmitting in the blind," (as you put it) and hope
that the message gets through. In church, where I basically feel like a
square peg in a round hole, it is even harder. My tendency is to blame the
problem on my lack of experience, or inability to stay focused, or confidence
level.
I also think it's a good possibility that (sometimes at least) something
else is deliberately causing the interference. I have been psychically sensitive
all my life. The closest analogy I can think of is that I spend some days
feeling like a police scanner on a very busy night! So it takes a lot of
time and effort to get my receiver tuned properly. Frequently it seems to
require more energy and focus than I can summon. I just do not think it
should be so hard.
When I was a teenager I read everything I could find on spiritualism and
channeling. (Back then a channeler was called a medium.) When I was satisfied
that I knew as much as I could without first-hand experience, I followed
the directions for inducing a trance. (It was incredibly easy.) In spite
of everything I had read, I was not prepared for what happened. A presence
immediately started to flow right into my body. I felt it physically as
well as mentally. It was so disturbing to me that I fought it off. That
was when I made the decision to quit doing anything psychic. Over the years
things continued to happen because I was able to turn the faucet enough
to slow down the flow, but I could never turn it completely off. I'm sharing
this story with you because it is an example of how susceptible I am to
spiritual influences. I've prayed for blessings for all those connected
to me in any way. I do the "spiritual shower" exercise, (and frequently
feel blocked there also.)
So, it's the same old story. I do not know if the block is me, or other.
>As you probably know, this would have been a good time to draw back
from the low-level contact and ask God to send a team of warrior angels.
Yes. I think what happens in cases like this is that I *think* I have drawn
back, but somehow the contact isn't broken. Seems to be part and parcel
of the same problem I discussed in the previous paragraphs -- that at times
I'm sort of an open receiver... You mentioned keeping "enough pressure
or flow in the line to keep the other's stuff from flowing to you (very
much like plumbing)." I obviously don't know how to do that.
[And then suddenly I was looking up from way down in the front passenger
seat of a car and I was suffocating. A voice said, "A baby died. Left
in the heat." I was breathing in short gasps and my heart was pounding...Well,
I did a lot more praying, got myself out of that front seat and back "home."]
>Expand on this a little more. Was it really you? Where was "home"?
By home, I mean that I broke all connections and "came back" to
my bedroom. I have no inkling if it was me. It was as if I was in the infant's
body, experiencing what the infant was experiencing. I was not aware of
any pain, just my hammering heart and labored breathing.
Err... I suppose this is the time to mention that I had a severe allergic
reaction to penicillin when I was 3 years old, and my throat closed up so
that I nearly suffocated. I have never been able to swallow large pills
because my throat closes on them. I have other minor allergies of undetermined
origin that sometimes cause my throat to swell. I can't swim under water
because it gives me an overwhelming feeling of suffocation. And I've got
a gag reflex that ought to be in the Guinness Book of World Records.
Well this does seem to be a rather interesting coincidence. But Ben, I've
never done any work with past-life regression. What I know about it amounts
to a few anecdotal stories concerning people who have been hypnotized. Wouldn't
know how to begin. Certainly didn't pray for it. I suppose it could have
been a past-life regression. But that doesn't fit with the situation --
I had been praying for a woman who seemed to have definite darkness surrounding
her. It seems incongruous that I would slip into a past-life regression
at that particular time. What do you think?
Ben, we could use your advice on a situation with a man here who seems to
have picked up something from Japan or China.
He is a professor of oriental languages. He visited several Asian countries
and came back very ill. Along with many physical problems he developed severe
clinical depression. Several months of medical care and psychological treatment
improved his condition but did not cure him. Several sessions at the church
with the prayer groups got him over the hump and finished healing his physical
ailments, and also helped considerably with the depression. He is still
under a doctor's care for depression, and meets with a spiritual advisor/counselor
once a week. Fran sensed something else going on at a deeper level, got
the message, "the ancient one." She referred him to a woman who
has more expertise with this sort of thing, who in turn recommended an exorcist.
He and the exorcist talked on the phone several times but have been unable
to coordinate schedules long enough to get together.
I had previously met and talked with him, so Fran asked me if I would mind
praying about it to see what I could discern. I tried three lengthy prayer
sessions, and without going into detail, what I've felt is a *stopping.*
A block. Something that holds him back, jerks him upright, so prevailing
that it affects every area of his life and even people and events around
him. I do not see or sense darkness. I'm simply stopped for getting anything
more specific. Like an invisible wall. Something else interesting. He was
at the first healing prayer session I attended, the one where I first met
the priest and was so aggravated by his sermon. At one point during the
session I was finally managing to relax and reach that point where my ability
to sense things works best. Then this man came up to the rail and placed
his hand on my shoulder. Everything immediately stopped, as if something
slammed on the brakes. I chalked it up to general nervousness and the unfamiliarity
with a stranger touching me. I gave it no further thought until my prayer
sessions when the memory resurfaced.
I suspect that at least some of the problem of coordinating schedules with
the exorcist is caused by this block. I also sense that he is cooperating
with it on some level. I suggested this to Fran, and she said it was quite
possible, as he tends to be fatalistic and negative -- he has a "glass
is half empty" perspective. But I also wonder how much of his negativity
is caused by whatever may be attached to him.
>I asked an angel rescue-team-leader why they didn't remove an evil
spirit from a man, and received the reply "Lest one more evil take
its place. He is still attracting them."
With this in mind, how best to help this man? I recommended to Fran that
she try a little more pressure on him to see the exorcist. (She knows him
well.)
That's it for tonight. Thanks Ben! Bless you!
Trudy
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