30 Nov 1996
Re: Farther Along...

Hello Trudy

Several of your questions concerning techniques suggest you might enjoy a copy of Dr. Baldwin's book, "Spirit Releasement Therapy: A Techniques Manual." It can be ordered from Headline Books at (800) 570-5951 or e-mail to Doctorbill@aol.com. It's not cheap (about $45.00), but I have not found any other as comprehensive, readable, and workable.

>I wonder if I shall not have to suspend the concept of "free will" very soon.

Two thoughts: I find that free will is best seen as latitude within limits; and our free will is *respected* by God. In other words, God respects free will, but evil spirits do not. My frustration is in the degree of respect that His angels show for the free will of evil spirits. I often wish they wouldn't. Binding or encapsulating in light is as far as they will go, and sometimes they won't even do that. I asked an angel rescue-team-leader why they didn't remove an evil spirit from a man, and received the reply, "Lest one more evil take its place. He is still attracting them."

>The "fruits" cannot always be seen or felt right away. Nor is it always possible to immediately test a spirit's honesty, although time will usually prove it either true or false. What I am looking for is some kind of immediate identification.

The closest thing to a quick-test is an entity's response to the question, "Who do you serve?" Those who work for Jesus typically respond with an unhesitating, joyous proclamation: "Jesus is my master." Some who say "Jesus is Lord" do not actually work for him. Any who tippy-toe around the name Jesus (often by using the title Christ or "Christ-consciousness") are suspect. Any other answer is definitely suspect. The answer "God" is not definitive, because there are too many meanings of that title.

>"If you are looking for the perfect church, you will not find it." So, was it precognition, or spirit? It makes a world of difference, when I look at the events of that night, where that communication came from.

It could be precognition, but it sounds like a churchman. If the priest was looking at you when you heard it the first time, it may have been his telepathic thought. If not, possibly his mentor (formerly a priest and now a ghost) said it to you the first time and the priest the second time. In any case, it was not something said only to you -- it is a standard line among churchmen who don't want to mess with a visitor who questions the church, or the local manifestation of church.

>As to the "psychic healing with no real connection to God" you mentioned as a possibility, I'm not sure that was the case.


>My consternation was brought on by the chain of events which seemed to work to prevent my "participation" in the healing session. As well as the following nights and days struggling with that overwhelming grief.

I am still concerned about whatever it was that seemed to work to prevent your participation in the healing session. But again, I'll wait and see.

>Fran called it "a spirit of grief," which she assumes is evil in nature, to be bound and removed. It matters to me what manner of spirit it was, if only so that I will know better, in the future, what to do, and so how best to help. Again, the problem is discernment: An evil spirit? A grief-stricken soul? Myself?

See the last entity we found in "Detachment Session, Karen". Also the last item in "Toolkit." I am very careful about labeling a person or a spirit evil.

>As I get involved with this ministry, I find it is much more than simple healing, and that my first observation was the correct one. Obviously each ministry has a different focus. Your focus is on "assisting souls to a place of safety." And while this is happening, a fair amount of healing takes place. Fran focus is on "healing." And while that is happening, at least while she is doing generational healing, a fair number of souls make it to a place of safety. You share enough common elements to convince me that sometimes, at least, you are doing the same thing.

Jesus sent his apostles out to proclaim, "The kingdom of God has drawn near" and told them to demonstrate that claim by observable evidence of the good-will of God: "heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse lepers, expel demons". Some need these four functions more than others. Some need one function first as prerequisite to the others. But the basic purpose is to provide a real reason for them to love God so they will go to Him.

>The word "soul-rescue" flies in the face of their theology, which teaches that the only one who rescues souls is Christ. But I think once they have a clear understanding of the process, it will cease to be a problem.

The way I use it, "soul-rescue" is a more direct functional equivalent of the often misused and badly abused theological term "salvation". I say: The loving God who sent Jesus rescues souls, but He does not do it alone. Many angels, as-angels, and humans work for Him, as His instruments. The primary purpose is to help souls home to eternal life in Heaven.

>But I will not give up the prayer of blessing demons and evil spirits. It is the most positive hope for the eventual redemption of creation I have seen. I believe this will be the biggest contention. The concepts that demons can (or even should) receive a blessing from God, and that they can be converted, are not easy concepts for many people.

Yeah, most people don't *want* God to bless all and curse none. They want a god of vengeance who damns, damages, destroys -- or better yet, punishes eternally -- the people and spirits they don't like.

>Nor will I quit soul-rescue. But I really believe this will not become an issue. God has a way of helping all of us grow. Fran and the other prayer team members will share with me what they know, and I will share with them what I know. And God knows what the results will be.


>Please tell me about the incident with the woman's phlebitis. How did you take on her phlebitis? How did you send it into the earth? And what safeguard did you put into place to prevent that from happening again?

I should write this one up and post it on my website. Several people in the spiritweb chat-rooms have reported this type of experience recently, and a few even advocate it as a method of healing. But I'll defer it for now, since it will take a couple of pages to convey the experience.

>The step I was having problems with, the step "too high to climb and a lifetime wide," was my belief that God abandoned me. My assumption is that God could intervene at *any* time and good would just naturally come of it. And yet all those years ago God did not rescue me. I could only assume then, that I was not worthy of rescue, that God did not love me. I have always felt that God didn't appear on the scene until 1987. I've known that was just my perception. But my heart wouldn't see it any other way. And so I have been very angry with God, and I could not trust.

All this comes from the theological assertion that God is omnipotent. Taken as a (subconscious) premise, it logically leads to the results you describe: "Since God could rescue me, but wouldn't, I must not be worth rescuing." That is how the dogma of omnipotence slanders God. I say: "Since God would rescue you, but couldn't, He still loves you and will try again." (See "Pivot Point" which I recently added to "Sampler" because I've been counseling so many people who are in that theological trap.)

>Two nights ago, I discovered the very idea that God would talk to me caused significant feelings of shame and guilt. I dug around in my memories awhile and discovered that whenever I spoke the truth, at the very least it brought derision from my family. I lived in a social and religious atmosphere that insisted any show of intelligence, or wisdom, or inner strength from a child/woman was pride and vanity. The ultimate vanity would be to believe God was talking to me!

Right: another piece of early mis-programming. It does help to recall some of the people Jesus talked to when he was on earth: fishermen, prostitutes, tax-collectors (IRS agents!), Samaritans... sinners for sure.

>It comforts me to know that I am not the only one who has struggled with God's messages.

Jesus did, too -- in the garden. And I believe elsewhere as well.

I got this insight in a dream, in which I watched the scene and heard what Jesus was thinking. A blind man beside the road yelled, "Son of David! Have mercy!" Jesus looked at him and inwardly asked God, "What do we do with this one?" I didn't hear the reply, but after a moment Jesus thought, "Oh, come on, you've got to be kidding!" Then he sighed, spat on the ground, made mud, and put it on the blind man's eyes.

>It takes me several days to write one of these letters.

Me, too. That's why my responses are slow. I have been thinking and praying about this one, off and on, for 10 days.

>Last night I was feeling particularly joyful and thankful because of these new insights. I established an uplink with God and said the Lord's prayer. When I got to the part about "Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us," I went through a very short list of people who I feel had harmed me, said to each one, "I forgive you," and asked God to bless them and surround them with light. I've done this particular exercise before, but this time it was much easier, less troubled, free of pain. ... During the prayer I suddenly remembered an individual I knew 3 years ago who caused extensive harm to many people, myself included. As I prayed for her I sensed a darkness, a blackness, and a definite uneasiness that is difficult to describe. The only thing I can say is that my first impulse was to stay away. It felt unclean.

As you probably know, this would have been a good time to draw back from the low-level contact and ask God to send a team of warrior angels.

>When I asked God to bless her and surround her with light, a darkness made up of malice and pressure showed up at my head.

This would be the time for you to exert immediate, forceful, personal resistance: "Get out of here!" (a short, sharp transmission-blast to hold the darkness at bay), followed by an immediate prayer-request for heavy-duty warrior angels.

>It began to surround me... and suddenly I was scrambling through a bunch of prayers for light, a one way valve on the connection between me and her, teams of angels at both ends, etc. First I prayed specific prayers to rid myself of the darkness around me. Then I prayed specific prayers for her.

Okay ... you worked it out. Not the most efficient way, but successful.

>I have never seen all the things you've talked about, Ben. The light workers and warrior angels and grey ghosts hanging around an individual. I really have no concept of what that's like. So I said to God, "What do you want me to see, Lord?" What I immediately sensed were strange creatures with tentacles, and a lot of other little dark things I can't describe.

I don't always see clearly. It is often vague, like that, with a mixture of knowing or understanding. "Strange creatures with tentacles and a lot of other little dark things" sounds like semi-intelligent or non-intelligent demons (lower life-forms) -- something like the spirits of what you might find if you turned over a rock.

>And then suddenly I was looking up from way down in the front passenger seat of a car and I was suffocating. A voice said, "A baby died. Left in the heat." I was breathing in short gasps and my heart was pounding...

Now this is a shift to another point of view: first-person, human, infant. It is very much like how a man in our group (Fred) picked up on two kids who suffocated in an abandoned refrigerator -- and at another time, two slightly older children who drowned in a car that went into a ditch full of water. But it also sounds like it could be a past-life regression.

>Ben, do you know how hard it is to maintain an uplink with God when things get this weird?


>Well, I did a lot more praying, got myself out of that front seat and back "home."

Expand on this a little more. Was it really you? Where was "home"?

>I know I would have seen more if I hung around longer, but I was pretty scared because of the physical symptoms, which took a while to subside. A voice said, "You're okay. Lie down. Rest." I did, but kept popping up. So much to evaluate.

Yes, enough is enough. Note that you were not alone.

>This is what I know now. None of that was my imagination. Things happened very, very quickly. (I keep using the words "immediately," and "suddenly.") My discernment was much clearer. I could tell who was good and who was definitely not good. I could see and feel things more vividly. Response to my prayers was almost instantaneous. As if my believing and trusting in God and His messages were all it took to "bring things into focus."

Amen. Welcome to the work.

>I need to be working with a prayer team when I'm faced with this stuff. But I don't think it's going to work out that way. Not only because I don't have a group yet, but also because I won't limit my prayers to some scheduled meeting. So I've got to learn all I can as quickly as I can.

Yes, a prayer team can help a lot, and a team can sense a wider range of spirits than one person can, but such a team is not easy to find -- or build. I'll offer whatever I can, as quickly as I receive it or recognize it.

>I need to understand why I get these physical symptoms, and what to do about them. Otherwise, this "on the job training" is going to be difficult.

You get physical symptoms if your caring-connection to the other person or spirit is real and you have not put enough pressure or flow in the line to keep the other's stuff from flowing to you (very much like plumbing).

Reception draws; transmission sends. Both are valuable skills. We need to learn how to receive, how to transmit, and how/when to select one mode or the other.

>How come I saw this stuff when praying for her, but not when praying for members of my own family?

From what you have written about those relationships, you are probably more guarded subconsciously when praying for members of your family, because you at least half-expect them to hurt you.

>What's going to happen next? (smile)

Now that you know caring-connections are real, it would also be good to learn how to point. This is how to do it: when praying for someone, do not connect to that person at all. Ignore the person and connect to the Lord. Try to rise up into the Light, stand with the Lord, and then point back down at the person, like shining a flashlight, so the Lord's angels can find him/her. Think "Forward Air Controller" -- they mark targets for "fast-movers" but don't get directly involved in a fight if they don't have to. (Pointing is just another way of working; you can still create your own caring-connection directly to the person when that is appropriate.)



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